An update

Have you ever had those times where a story completely encapsulates you, where you can’t seem to write anything else? I’m in that time right now. This story for my fiction writing class has been grasping my attention recently (that and all my other schoolwork). I felt so swamped last week that my brain had had enough by the time the weekend came along. For an hour (or probably longer), I could only produce babbles and blank stares at my computer screen.

Mindful prompt: “By the time my head hits the pillow tonight, I intend to feel like I really _______.”

Today is a day–a day I don’t know how to finish this sentence. After I completed my last homework assignment of last week, while I feel accomplished, I feel- meh. It’s one of those days, I suppose. I could simply watch TV, like most days I feel out of it, but I wanted to do something different–a mindfulness writing prompt.
By the time my head hits the pillow tonight, I intend to feel like I really did my best. I don’t expect to be out of my funk by the end of the night. I’m fighting my way through each word I’m typing. I know I don’t need to write today. I could take a break and numb my mind on endless TV, starting my day fresh tomorrow. But I’m stubborn.

It’s ironic, really. So, I decided to draw next. Maybe it was just writing that I couldn’t do, but I couldn’t seem to draw either. I did create something I’m satisfied with, but imagine if I had my creative juices flowing.

For context, this is the character I draw when my mind isn’t working correctly. It’s easy because it’s mainly color. However, though I can draw an easy character when my mind is numb, I have yet to have a story or character I can mindlessly write about. Writing is fun but can be time-consuming in the most negative way. When you start not enjoying what you’re writing, writing just to write, that’s a time to step back and focus on the joy and passion it initially gave you.

So, that’s where I am. I will post an old story and the story I’ve been writing for almost a week soon. I’m slowly creeping out of my mental rut. See you on the other side.

Take some time to be present today.